It's a question I've been asked daily since my last post.
So here are the deets (details)...
I've been reading some stuff.
Different blogs, books, devotionals, scripture, etc. I've been talking to friends and family. God is shaking things up. I swear I've had more than a dozen conversations with people who feel a shift in the way they are seeing their lives, their impact on the world, their purpose and vision for the future. They are ready for the unsafe, the uncharted, the wild. It's like this strategic stirring, a calling that echoes in our core, calling us to go big and reach for something scary and untamed. It's so hard to put it into words. David and I have felt it for a few years. But lately it's been overwhelming.
I'm so afraid of living a mediocre life. I'm so tired of the drudgery and my ineffective daily routine and all-around selfish living. I'm ready for something different.
And so, with two other families, we are spending the next 7 months refining our vision and the way we live. We're focusing on different areas each month. We're making more room in our lives. We're spending some time listening and watching and waiting.
In July our family is focusing on our 'stuff'.
We are identifying areas of excess, cleaning out the clutter, giving up possessions to help others. Don't misunderstand. We are not taking massive loads to the Goodwill so we can feel good about simplifying and being organized. This is about intentional giving. Intentional living.
I'll be honest here. I'm struggling with talking about or even blogging about my journey for the next 7 months. I struggle with pride and motive. I'm asking myself: Why am I sharing this journey? Is it so I can say "Hey, look at me!" Is it because I want to be on the edge, doing something cool and blogworthy? Is it because I want to impress people? Why? I'm taking a good look at myself lately, and it's ugly stuff. Fear, envy, pride, over-indulgence, selfishness, self-centeredness, insecurity, intolerance, irritability, stubbornness. And more.
God help me.
All I know is that right now I'm going to put one foot in front of the other and be obedient. I don't know what that will look like. I don't know what it will cost. I don't know if I can even do it. I just know I have to move.
And those are pretty much the deets.
|if you read one thing this year, make it this one|